A million and one things and I’m not going to do any of them tonight.

I’ve spent a good portion of the day getting it completely wrong with a very good friend who I don’t usually get in this kind of tangled mess with. We’ve come to the conclusion neither of us is in a space to sort it out, and the kindest thing we can do for each other is leave it for now and sort it out after the weekend, when almost all that is currently stressing us both will be over and done with…

I’m not too bothered, as I once would have been. I’m aware when we’re both stressed, we react in very different ways, and neither of our ways is helpful to the other! I know, from past experience, that we will get things right again.

But I do wish I’d kept my mouth shut! I really didn’t mean what I said the way it sounded.

Alas, I know I have an appallingly high capacity for brain not engaging before mouth opening when I’m so tired, when I really don’t want to explain why I’m so tired (well, to this particular group of people we were with I didn’t!) and when I’m doing my level best to maintain a professional attitude and persona and not really managing it.

Tomorrow is another day, thankfully.

I may get all my clean clothes put away, and finish the accounts and tidy my room…. which looks like several whirling dervishes have been whirling dervish-ly at great speed.

Then again, I may not.