I’m recovering from various events and very deep discussions, and an Official Occasion last night was enough to finish me off… so, I overslept this morning. Tomorrow would’ve been better, as I’m usually somewhere else on a Wednesday, but as my presence is not essential, they kindly accepted my profuse apologies, and let me take the morning off!

So, I’ve unpacked the rucksack and I think the words that had been deserting me since about last Friday have now emerged as well…

Whilst I’m still very, very tired – I’m feeling a lot more positive about whatever the future is going to hold, and a lot more content to be in the present, thinking and praying, and then be ready to make the decisions that need to be made at the right time.. There are several layers to my life that have major decision making processes going on … and I’ve just added another layer. it might all lead to even further chaos, it might not.

But, for the first time in 20 years, it seems like I’m ready to look at a great deal that needs to be sorted, acknowledged and accepted for what it really is, and I’ve found a safe place and person to do it all with.

It’s scary – it’s a bit annoying, because I though I’d done most of the work a long while ago, and it seems there loads more to do, but it’s right.