My Everchanging Plot of Life

My Everchanging Plot of Lifehttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/en-UKhourly82000-01-01T12:00+00:00My Everchanging Plot of Lifehttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/http://data5.blog.de/design/preview/8d/b610b458d814a30f4706c1c500cd6d_160x200.jpgThe end of an erahttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/10/01/the-end-of-an-era-7076880/2009-10-01T12:26:58+02:00 <p>After three years, it's time for Tentativeplotfinder to go , and for the Lost Plot to draw to a close.</p> <p>Tentative is no longer appropriate, though I'll probably always have a bit of a Lost Plot and changes galore going on. It's also time to move on. </p> <p>Thank you to those who've read, encourage, supported and if you want to know how the plot is progressing, it's over <a href="http://japescc.blog.co.uk/">here</a>, continually changing.</p> <p>Of course, if you don't want to, feel free to move on as well!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/10/01/the-end-of-an-era-7076880/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>After three years, it's time for Tentativeplotfinder to go , and for the Lost Plot to draw to a close.

Tentative is no longer appropriate, though I'll probably always have a bit of a Lost Plot and changes galore going on. It's also time to move on.

Thank you to those who've read, encourage, supported and if you want to know how the plot is progressing, it's over here, continually changing.

Of course, if you don't want to, feel free to move on as well!!

]]>Where did that one go to?http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/27/where-did-that-one-go-to-7048890/2009-09-27T14:05:10+02:00 <p>Vanished into the ether my last post did! Not a saved draft or anything.... Pah.</p> <p>The only thing I can remember now about it it that I was going to break with the tradition of this being a words only blog, and share with you a video. But, I can't work how to do it! So, you'll just have to follow the link. I really liked the <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sTIv8hP-UIA&feature=related">anarchy</a>. </p> <p>I think I murmured something about too much domesticity, too little sleep, and too much interference going on!</p> <p>Today, I am calmer... I understand why various people are concerned and worried, but I need to ignore the unhelpful stuff, and concentrate on what I want and need. I didn't turn my life upside down for a different lot of people to start doing the unhelpful stuff.</p> <p>The future is looking much more settled, and I can live with the unsettled nature of life until then!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/27/where-did-that-one-go-to-7048890/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Vanished into the ether my last post did! Not a saved draft or anything.... Pah.

The only thing I can remember now about it it that I was going to break with the tradition of this being a words only blog, and share with you a video. But, I can't work how to do it! So, you'll just have to follow the link. I really liked the anarchy.

I think I murmured something about too much domesticity, too little sleep, and too much interference going on!

Today, I am calmer... I understand why various people are concerned and worried, but I need to ignore the unhelpful stuff, and concentrate on what I want and need. I didn't turn my life upside down for a different lot of people to start doing the unhelpful stuff.

The future is looking much more settled, and I can live with the unsettled nature of life until then!

]]>And, here's even more exciting!http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/22/and-here-s-even-more-exciting-7020573/2009-09-22T21:25:46+02:00 <ul> <li>I have a pair of TPF sized steel toe capped boots on order. (TPF feet being at least three sizes smaller than most of the feet that go through this particular department.)</li> <li>I now get to wear jeans to work two days a week.</li> <li>I ache like mad after standing all afternoon on a very hard floor, but I learnt a lot.</li> <li>I wasn't let loose with a saw, but I've been promised a go next week!</li> </ul> <p>I am also extremely grateful for some past experiences that are going to make this totally unexpected turn of events possible!</p> <p>But, my laundry is done, my bath is calling and so is my bed... for the next three days are going to be extra busy!</p> <p>I'm quite glad I had a lazy day yesterday now.</p> <p> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/22/and-here-s-even-more-exciting-7020573/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>

I have a pair of TPF sized steel toe capped boots on order. (TPF feet being at least three sizes smaller than most of the feet that go through this particular department.)

I now get to wear jeans to work two days a week.

I ache like mad after standing all afternoon on a very hard floor, but I learnt a lot.

I wasn't let loose with a saw, but I've been promised a go next week!

I am also extremely grateful for some past experiences that are going to make this totally unexpected turn of events possible!

But, my laundry is done, my bath is calling and so is my bed... for the next three days are going to be extra busy!

I'm quite glad I had a lazy day yesterday now.

]]>Scrumping, skiving off, and sleepinghttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/21/scrumping-skiving-off-and-sleeping-7013147/2009-09-21T21:44:16+02:00 <p>There's exciting! There is a pear tree in the garden. Actually, I'm sure I knew about it before, but had forgotten about it until I caught three respectable, responsible grown ups, (well, they are older than me) all picking pears after a meeting today from the other side of the fence. I so wish I'd had a camera to catch the guilty looks. I'd best do some pear picking before Sunday and take them to share, because there's no way I'll eat a tree full.</p> <p>I felt like I'd been skiving all day today, but whilst I didn't get done that which I had intended today, I have taken on extra hours at work at very short notice, and it can all be done on Thursday.</p> <p>And now, to sleep.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/21/scrumping-skiving-off-and-sleeping-7013147/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>There's exciting! There is a pear tree in the garden. Actually, I'm sure I knew about it before, but had forgotten about it until I caught three respectable, responsible grown ups, (well, they are older than me) all picking pears after a meeting today from the other side of the fence. I so wish I'd had a camera to catch the guilty looks. I'd best do some pear picking before Sunday and take them to share, because there's no way I'll eat a tree full.

I felt like I'd been skiving all day today, but whilst I didn't get done that which I had intended today, I have taken on extra hours at work at very short notice, and it can all be done on Thursday.

And now, to sleep.

]]>Glad it will be only twice a weekhttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/12/glad-it-will-be-only-twice-a-week-6949737/2009-09-12T19:18:52+02:00 <p>and thankful that, thus far in my life, I've avoided being a commuter! This is only temporary, so I should be able to sustain it for the next few months. But, these early mornings are definitely a shock to the system after some time of not having to deal with life before 9.00 a.m.</p> <p>So, mild domesticity, gentle pottering, and even a bit of leaf raking have been today's activities. Oh, and finally sorting my room out. I concluded unpacking everything for a few months was silly, but unpacking enough to make the room feel like I live in it, and organising the bags and boxes into a more sensible arrangement for getting to the contents, but not feeling overwhelmed by them was the way to go. It looks much better now, and the addition of all my throws as covering boxes devices helped enormously. </p> <p>I've removed all the unintentional orange stripes from my work clothes as well!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/12/glad-it-will-be-only-twice-a-week-6949737/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>and thankful that, thus far in my life, I've avoided being a commuter! This is only temporary, so I should be able to sustain it for the next few months. But, these early mornings are definitely a shock to the system after some time of not having to deal with life before 9.00 a.m.

So, mild domesticity, gentle pottering, and even a bit of leaf raking have been today's activities. Oh, and finally sorting my room out. I concluded unpacking everything for a few months was silly, but unpacking enough to make the room feel like I live in it, and organising the bags and boxes into a more sensible arrangement for getting to the contents, but not feeling overwhelmed by them was the way to go. It looks much better now, and the addition of all my throws as covering boxes devices helped enormously.

I've removed all the unintentional orange stripes from my work clothes as well!

]]>Not looking forwards to tomorrow morninghttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/09/not-looking-forwards-to-tomorrow-morning-6933532/2009-09-09T22:23:39+02:00 <p>from the point of view of the travel, but I am quite looking forwards to getting back to a more regular routine.</p> <p>I can see, however, that sticking to my resolve to travel the cheaper, but somewhat slower, way may well weaken as soon as I know how many extra hours work I will be getting and, more importantly, how much I will be paid! </p> <p>I also want to be able to work out if I can also fit some self-employed music teaching in!!</p> <p>I may not be going for this interview for the job I don't want next week, after all. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/09/not-looking-forwards-to-tomorrow-morning-6933532/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>from the point of view of the travel, but I am quite looking forwards to getting back to a more regular routine.

I can see, however, that sticking to my resolve to travel the cheaper, but somewhat slower, way may well weaken as soon as I know how many extra hours work I will be getting and, more importantly, how much I will be paid!

I also want to be able to work out if I can also fit some self-employed music teaching in!!

I may not be going for this interview for the job I don't want next week, after all.

]]>Testing, testing...http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/08/testing-testing-6925857/2009-09-08T21:17:44+02:00 <p>bus routes! And proving that the bus as far as the outer limit of my bus pass, then picking up the train for the 15 minute journey from there will work very nicely. It will only be twice a week.</p> <p>I am getting used to being back on familiar, yet not at all familiar territory. I have to stop and think in the centre of town which bus I'm coming home on. And where home is for now! I had to remember this morning not to go to my former work place. </p> <p>I've not unpacked much again, but for different reasons this time. Mostly, for now, I don't need to unpack much and it can stay put until a more permanent abode is found. When I first packed up, I packed in such a way that I can remember where things are!! I may have boxes with space in, but things that belong together, are together, and not all muddled up. </p> <p>But, I am very, very tired all over again!!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/08/testing-testing-6925857/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>bus routes! And proving that the bus as far as the outer limit of my bus pass, then picking up the train for the 15 minute journey from there will work very nicely. It will only be twice a week.

I am getting used to being back on familiar, yet not at all familiar territory. I have to stop and think in the centre of town which bus I'm coming home on. And where home is for now! I had to remember this morning not to go to my former work place.

I've not unpacked much again, but for different reasons this time. Mostly, for now, I don't need to unpack much and it can stay put until a more permanent abode is found. When I first packed up, I packed in such a way that I can remember where things are!! I may have boxes with space in, but things that belong together, are together, and not all muddled up.

But, I am very, very tired all over again!!

]]>Here's hoping I don't need a passport!http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/07/here-s-hoping-i-don-t-need-a-passport-6913926/2009-09-07T18:34:41+02:00 <p>Goodness me, that was a traumatic experience. Getting my photo taken for my bus pass, that is. </p> <p>It's been a little while since I've visited a photo booth, as I've not needed a photo of myself since I got my photo card with my driving licence. They are seriously high-tech and bossy now, and tell you if the photo is not passport compliant! Twice it told me so, then threatened me I only had one more try to get it right, before extracting another £4.00 out of me. The problem appears to be the fact I wear glasses that create some reflection. But, if I take the glasses off, I can't see either the frame in which my face has to go, or which button to press!! Nor does it look like me without glasses.</p> <p>Luckily, the non-passport-compliant version of the photo was acceptable for the bus pass! Should I need a passport, I'm going to need a well behaved volunteer to come with me to get it all correct, and acceptable to me as well as the passport people. </p> <p>Also luckily, by the time I returned home, the washing machine had decided to co-operate, and all was well with my laundry. I had a couple of heart stopping moments where I was convinced I'd broken the machine, or it had died on me, but I'd just not coaxed it sufficiently.</p> <p>It's been a busy day, one way or another... it's rather nice. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/07/here-s-hoping-i-don-t-need-a-passport-6913926/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Goodness me, that was a traumatic experience. Getting my photo taken for my bus pass, that is.

It's been a little while since I've visited a photo booth, as I've not needed a photo of myself since I got my photo card with my driving licence. They are seriously high-tech and bossy now, and tell you if the photo is not passport compliant! Twice it told me so, then threatened me I only had one more try to get it right, before extracting another £4.00 out of me. The problem appears to be the fact I wear glasses that create some reflection. But, if I take the glasses off, I can't see either the frame in which my face has to go, or which button to press!! Nor does it look like me without glasses.

Luckily, the non-passport-compliant version of the photo was acceptable for the bus pass! Should I need a passport, I'm going to need a well behaved volunteer to come with me to get it all correct, and acceptable to me as well as the passport people.

Also luckily, by the time I returned home, the washing machine had decided to co-operate, and all was well with my laundry. I had a couple of heart stopping moments where I was convinced I'd broken the machine, or it had died on me, but I'd just not coaxed it sufficiently.

It's been a busy day, one way or another... it's rather nice.

]]>Educationhttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/06/education-6902431/2009-09-06T09:04:36+02:00 <p>My delightful young assistant of yesterday had his education thoroughly expande! Which is no bad thing, he's never keen on new experiences at the best of times, and adding me into the mix somewhat unexpectedly over the last few weeks has been interesting.</p> <p>So, he learnt I really can get an awful lot into a small car with the back seats down. That it is possible to drive using only wing mirrors for checking the rear view. That mishaps may happen, but it's possible to charm your way out of them. </p> <p>He did, however, escape with all possible speed once the task was done!! And he did fill me in on far more of the family gossip of the last few weeks than I think he realised... most useful of him. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/06/education-6902431/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>My delightful young assistant of yesterday had his education thoroughly expande! Which is no bad thing, he's never keen on new experiences at the best of times, and adding me into the mix somewhat unexpectedly over the last few weeks has been interesting.

So, he learnt I really can get an awful lot into a small car with the back seats down. That it is possible to drive using only wing mirrors for checking the rear view. That mishaps may happen, but it's possible to charm your way out of them.

He did, however, escape with all possible speed once the task was done!! And he did fill me in on far more of the family gossip of the last few weeks than I think he realised... most useful of him.

]]>All packed againhttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/04/all-packed-again-6893541/2009-09-04T22:20:45+02:00 <p>There's efficient. All done in an hour, apart from the last bits and pieces to put in tomorrow morning. No, I don't know how it happened either! Could be mostly because I didn't really <em>un</em>pack. Not entirely sure it's all going to fit in the car, though I'm sure most of it will, unlike my delightful young assistant who thinks the car won't hold much at all(his original excuse for trying to get out of a few hours of work, which crumpled at the offer of petrol money and food) - but then, he's never seen me pack a car before!</p> <p>Back at work after two months away... Odd, but good. Change of lots of things, routine (a few more hours, for one thing!), main work place, lots of oddments to sort out. Lots of excellent conversations with a number of people, and some very surprising conversations also. Think it's going to be a good year there. </p> <p>Why do I possess a yellow tortoise, with a green shell and a purple hat? </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/09/04/all-packed-again-6893541/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>There's efficient. All done in an hour, apart from the last bits and pieces to put in tomorrow morning. No, I don't know how it happened either! Could be mostly because I didn't really unpack. Not entirely sure it's all going to fit in the car, though I'm sure most of it will, unlike my delightful young assistant who thinks the car won't hold much at all(his original excuse for trying to get out of a few hours of work, which crumpled at the offer of petrol money and food) - but then, he's never seen me pack a car before!

Back at work after two months away... Odd, but good. Change of lots of things, routine (a few more hours, for one thing!), main work place, lots of oddments to sort out. Lots of excellent conversations with a number of people, and some very surprising conversations also. Think it's going to be a good year there.

Why do I possess a yellow tortoise, with a green shell and a purple hat?

]]>On closer inspection...http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/31/on-closer-inspection-6859950/2009-08-31T13:28:15+02:00 <p>the CD player is definitely dead. It's had a hard life, and been used a lot, but I'm still sure it should've had a longer life than four and a half years.</p> <p>The keyboard may not be as terminally sick as I thought, and a new lead will be tried first.</p> <p>Mood improving, thankfully. It's been just as well I've not had much encounter with the rest of the human race for about ten days! Though, I have watched far too much TV. Enough to make up for the fact I've scarcely watched any for years.</p> <p>I think I may be able to pack the little I'd unpacked in a much more sensible fashion, and may even have an unused bag this time round. I'm also not trying to think of three different lots of travelling this time! </p> <p>I'm still bemused as to how the Odd Sock Situation has got out of control so fast, so dramatically, <em>again</em>. I shall have to go on a Sock Hunt.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/31/on-closer-inspection-6859950/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>the CD player is definitely dead. It's had a hard life, and been used a lot, but I'm still sure it should've had a longer life than four and a half years.

The keyboard may not be as terminally sick as I thought, and a new lead will be tried first.

Mood improving, thankfully. It's been just as well I've not had much encounter with the rest of the human race for about ten days! Though, I have watched far too much TV. Enough to make up for the fact I've scarcely watched any for years.

I think I may be able to pack the little I'd unpacked in a much more sensible fashion, and may even have an unused bag this time round. I'm also not trying to think of three different lots of travelling this time!

I'm still bemused as to how the Odd Sock Situation has got out of control so fast, so dramatically, again. I shall have to go on a Sock Hunt.

]]>How dare they!!http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/31/how-dare-they-6857335/2009-08-31T01:12:01+02:00 <p>The current horrid mood, impending sulk, tearfulness, inertia, etc. etc. They're going to have to go on hold. </p> <p>Just never mind the sorting out a job, where to live, what to do with the rest of my life stuff. For some more serious crises have hit... </p> <p>How <em>dare</em> the CD player die on me, with such noisy dramatics, and how <em>dare</em> the keyboard (of the musical variety) threaten it! </p> <p>I've not got time for this. Look, I'm the one having the tantrums and the sulks, not you, and I've only got another day or so left to have them in peace and tranquillity... OK, another day to have them with my music playing loudly, at full volume. And I can't if the CD player is dead, and the keyboard is crackling if it's on louder than medium volume!!!!</p> <p>Stomps off to bed to have a decent sulk, in silence.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/31/how-dare-they-6857335/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>The current horrid mood, impending sulk, tearfulness, inertia, etc. etc. They're going to have to go on hold.

Just never mind the sorting out a job, where to live, what to do with the rest of my life stuff. For some more serious crises have hit...

How dare the CD player die on me, with such noisy dramatics, and how dare the keyboard (of the musical variety) threaten it!

I've not got time for this. Look, I'm the one having the tantrums and the sulks, not you, and I've only got another day or so left to have them in peace and tranquillity... OK, another day to have them with my music playing loudly, at full volume. And I can't if the CD player is dead, and the keyboard is crackling if it's on louder than medium volume!!!!

Stomps off to bed to have a decent sulk, in silence.

]]>Trying very hard not to...http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/29/trying-very-hard-not-to-6846749/2009-08-29T10:45:22+02:00 <p>over-react. </p> <p>panic.</p> <p>say something I will regret later, but will make me feel considerably better now.</p> <p>worry.</p> <p>disappear into a corner.</p> <p>apologise for my existence.</p> <p>But the sooner distance is restored the better. I am clearly remembering why it was established, and maintained in the first place.</p> <p>Now, back to wondering how on earth a job application for a job I don't want, and whose application I filled in in a hurry, just to get various people off my back, has resulted in an interview? Pah. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/29/trying-very-hard-not-to-6846749/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>over-react.

panic.

say something I will regret later, but will make me feel considerably better now.

worry.

disappear into a corner.

apologise for my existence.

But the sooner distance is restored the better. I am clearly remembering why it was established, and maintained in the first place.

Now, back to wondering how on earth a job application for a job I don't want, and whose application I filled in in a hurry, just to get various people off my back, has resulted in an interview? Pah.

]]>That's that lot done..http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/27/that-s-that-lot-done-6836151/2009-08-27T19:44:22+02:00 <p>The green bin crisis has been sorted.</p> <p>The shopping is done for the next few days.</p> <p>Much celebrating has been done with those who have had good exam results today.</p> <p>Nephew has been bribed to be helpful... except he doesn't quite know what a slave driver his aunt can be, or how good she is at packing a car. He'll learn.</p> <p>It's about to pour with rain, so watering the garden will be minimal again!</p> <p>The fishes are thriving happily. One feeding a day has been adhered to strictly, despite all the soulful looks they give me every time I go to make a cup of coffee..</p> <p>I think I've caught up on my sleep, now.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/27/that-s-that-lot-done-6836151/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>The green bin crisis has been sorted.

The shopping is done for the next few days.

Much celebrating has been done with those who have had good exam results today.

Nephew has been bribed to be helpful... except he doesn't quite know what a slave driver his aunt can be, or how good she is at packing a car. He'll learn.

It's about to pour with rain, so watering the garden will be minimal again!

The fishes are thriving happily. One feeding a day has been adhered to strictly, despite all the soulful looks they give me every time I go to make a cup of coffee..

I think I've caught up on my sleep, now.

]]>Ground to a halthttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/26/ground-to-a-halt-6828336/2009-08-26T19:30:30+02:00 <p>Oh dear. </p> <p>I'm not entirely surprised, but I seem to have ground to a complete halt! More long sleeping sessions, and a severe case of inertia when I am awake. Pouring rain didn't encourage me to go out of doors as I had intended to do today.</p> <p>Still, it did mean I didn't have to water the garden.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/26/ground-to-a-halt-6828336/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Oh dear.

I'm not entirely surprised, but I seem to have ground to a complete halt! More long sleeping sessions, and a severe case of inertia when I am awake. Pouring rain didn't encourage me to go out of doors as I had intended to do today.

Still, it did mean I didn't have to water the garden.

]]>That was what I was needing...http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/25/that-was-what-i-was-needing-6817336/2009-08-25T11:19:10+02:00 <p>a solid ten hours sleep! Sleep's been a bit erratic lately, and being awoken in the morning by an enthusiastic, barking dog is <em>not</em> my ideal alarm clock. She has finally realised inspecting me cautiously is the best plan, and if I'm still under the duvet, it's best only to stand and look. Then go away if no head or arm emerges to acknowledge a new day has begun. As the dear creature is away with her loving staff, my system is gratefully making the most of it!</p> <p>That was the excellent news of the morning.</p> <p>The good news was I caught the re-cycling truck with the three <em>huge</em> boxes full of paper, card and glass in the nick of time. </p> <p>The bad news is that I failed to get the green bin out... methinks a little creative working out how to get the contents to the local tip will be happening when I'm more awake. Luckily, it's within walking distance, and I think two or maybe three shopping trolley loads should do it! </p> <p>Back to form filling....</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/25/that-was-what-i-was-needing-6817336/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>a solid ten hours sleep! Sleep's been a bit erratic lately, and being awoken in the morning by an enthusiastic, barking dog is not my ideal alarm clock. She has finally realised inspecting me cautiously is the best plan, and if I'm still under the duvet, it's best only to stand and look. Then go away if no head or arm emerges to acknowledge a new day has begun. As the dear creature is away with her loving staff, my system is gratefully making the most of it!

That was the excellent news of the morning.

The good news was I caught the re-cycling truck with the three huge boxes full of paper, card and glass in the nick of time.

The bad news is that I failed to get the green bin out... methinks a little creative working out how to get the contents to the local tip will be happening when I'm more awake. Luckily, it's within walking distance, and I think two or maybe three shopping trolley loads should do it!

Back to form filling....

]]>These I like!http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/24/these-i-like-6811776/2009-08-24T21:08:23+02:00 <p>Watching <em>Taggart</em> without having to translate.</p> <p>Getting the laundry all done and sorted, especially after the little incident with the self-adhesive sticker sheet left in the black jeans pocket. Gaffer tape was very useful in sorting this crisis out!</p> <p>Regular clarinet practice.</p> <p>A church that does fire drill.</p> <p>If water plants I have to do, a sufficient supply of watering cans to save me walking miles is very impressive.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/24/these-i-like-6811776/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Watching Taggart without having to translate.

Getting the laundry all done and sorted, especially after the little incident with the self-adhesive sticker sheet left in the black jeans pocket. Gaffer tape was very useful in sorting this crisis out!

Regular clarinet practice.

A church that does fire drill.

If water plants I have to do, a sufficient supply of watering cans to save me walking miles is very impressive.

]]>Tries not to get too excitedhttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/23/tries-not-to-get-too-excited-6798730/2009-08-23T09:57:57+02:00 <p>but is failing miserably.</p> <p>I am home alone for a whole week. Well, apart from the fish, who I will get to feed, (and in a crisis call on Soy for help) and the plants I get to water, and possibly a lawn to mow if the grass grows too enthusiastically.</p> <p>Not, in my current circumstances, that I am as desperate for time home alone as I have been for the last two years, and I am getting three months worth very soon. But, for the past four weeks, there's been a lot of changes going on, and a week to get used to some of them a bit more is what I need. </p> <p>Off to try out a different church, again!! I did go there a couple of weeks ago in the evening, but realise it wasn't a good time to see just how much it really had changed over twenty five or more years. (No organ any more!) </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/23/tries-not-to-get-too-excited-6798730/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>but is failing miserably.

I am home alone for a whole week. Well, apart from the fish, who I will get to feed, (and in a crisis call on Soy for help) and the plants I get to water, and possibly a lawn to mow if the grass grows too enthusiastically.

Not, in my current circumstances, that I am as desperate for time home alone as I have been for the last two years, and I am getting three months worth very soon. But, for the past four weeks, there's been a lot of changes going on, and a week to get used to some of them a bit more is what I need.

Off to try out a different church, again!! I did go there a couple of weeks ago in the evening, but realise it wasn't a good time to see just how much it really had changed over twenty five or more years. (No organ any more!)

]]>Maybe nothttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/22/maybe-not-6792777/2009-08-22T10:22:36+02:00 <p>I was going to go off for a long walk (again) but now I'm up and dressed, and the bells have finally ceased (perils of living so close to a church with enthusiastic bell ringers) I've just looked out of the window, and it looks ominously like serious rain will be along later.</p> <p>I was also going to do some laundry, but I think that can wait too. There is no immediate urgency.</p> <p>Maybe writing some answers to numerous e-mails and letters is what I'm meant to do today, but maybe not! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/22/maybe-not-6792777/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I was going to go off for a long walk (again) but now I'm up and dressed, and the bells have finally ceased (perils of living so close to a church with enthusiastic bell ringers) I've just looked out of the window, and it looks ominously like serious rain will be along later.

I was also going to do some laundry, but I think that can wait too. There is no immediate urgency.

Maybe writing some answers to numerous e-mails and letters is what I'm meant to do today, but maybe not!

]]>Adventures with a Bus Pass and No Maphttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/21/adventures-with-a-bus-pass-and-no-map-6779840/2009-08-21T19:52:09+02:00 <p>Since I had a job application form that needed sending and I'd never been to the place in my life before, I decided to take myself off to deliver it to be sure it got there. This was once I realised that the county wide day ticket covered all buses I needed. Three buses there, and three buses back...</p> <p>So, off I trotted this morning, with lunch box full of supplies, and complete form firmly in my back pack!! The first bit was a doddle, even if I got waylaid by an archdeacon looking for a church. I was extremely polite, and directed him to the church I knew was hidden behind the trees. The first two buses were extremely easy, and there was even one of the second variety waiting patiently for me at the bus stop, so I was not waylaid by the joys of being in a bigger city.</p> <p>In the next town, I did get waylaid by the supermarket of a variety I don't get where I am currently living. But, not for long, as the buses to the Village I was seeking were not that frequent, and I wasn't entirely certain where I was going when I got there. I did have a scribbled on the back of an envelope map, but nothing more, as my printer was doing dire things last night, I did not dare risk it dying on me by asking it to print a map as well as a completed job application form! </p> <p>Now, I wish to protest to the namers of villages at this point. Old Village and New Village are unhelpful when only Village has been named in addresses all through the process. Especially is this unhelpful when I got out at Old Village, before realising I needed New Village. New Village is a good mile or so's walk up hill from Old Village. I am grateful that I have been walking a lot more lately, and am considerably fitter than I was this time a month ago. </p> <p>New Village, on first sight, had me wondering why on earth anyone would think this place could hold a job for which I am, apparently, ideally suited. I am not a country soul, nor do I have any desire to work in a village, let alone live in a village. Especially not an affluent looking village, which was at odds with what I'd been told about the area. I've had several mis-gvings about this particular job ever since it was enthusiastically thrust at me, with much pressure to apply for it. Even with all the information I have, I'm still not convinced, but am also aware I need a job!!</p> <p>Further exploration of New Village convinced me it could be possible... sight of possible work place also had me convinced that, should by some wild possibility I get this job, it could be later than advertised, and would suit me better! A moment of encountering the local hostelry, (we won't discuss why the urgent need, but I didn't linger once I'd purchased a bottle of a soft drink as recompense for my use of the facilities) and a walk across the park totally convinced me this village was definitely only affluent around the edges. I'm still not more than about 80% convinced, but I posted the application form through the appropriate door anyway!! </p> <p>And, as if to reward me for my virtue, all three buses home connected beautifully, and I had no more than five minutes to wait anywhere.</p> <p>So, I'm declaring a work free weekend. I've filled in lots of forms this week, and done lots of useful things. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/21/adventures-with-a-bus-pass-and-no-map-6779840/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Since I had a job application form that needed sending and I'd never been to the place in my life before, I decided to take myself off to deliver it to be sure it got there. This was once I realised that the county wide day ticket covered all buses I needed. Three buses there, and three buses back...

So, off I trotted this morning, with lunch box full of supplies, and complete form firmly in my back pack!! The first bit was a doddle, even if I got waylaid by an archdeacon looking for a church. I was extremely polite, and directed him to the church I knew was hidden behind the trees. The first two buses were extremely easy, and there was even one of the second variety waiting patiently for me at the bus stop, so I was not waylaid by the joys of being in a bigger city.

In the next town, I did get waylaid by the supermarket of a variety I don't get where I am currently living. But, not for long, as the buses to the Village I was seeking were not that frequent, and I wasn't entirely certain where I was going when I got there. I did have a scribbled on the back of an envelope map, but nothing more, as my printer was doing dire things last night, I did not dare risk it dying on me by asking it to print a map as well as a completed job application form!

Now, I wish to protest to the namers of villages at this point. Old Village and New Village are unhelpful when only Village has been named in addresses all through the process. Especially is this unhelpful when I got out at Old Village, before realising I needed New Village. New Village is a good mile or so's walk up hill from Old Village. I am grateful that I have been walking a lot more lately, and am considerably fitter than I was this time a month ago.

New Village, on first sight, had me wondering why on earth anyone would think this place could hold a job for which I am, apparently, ideally suited. I am not a country soul, nor do I have any desire to work in a village, let alone live in a village. Especially not an affluent looking village, which was at odds with what I'd been told about the area. I've had several mis-gvings about this particular job ever since it was enthusiastically thrust at me, with much pressure to apply for it. Even with all the information I have, I'm still not convinced, but am also aware I need a job!!

Further exploration of New Village convinced me it could be possible... sight of possible work place also had me convinced that, should by some wild possibility I get this job, it could be later than advertised, and would suit me better! A moment of encountering the local hostelry, (we won't discuss why the urgent need, but I didn't linger once I'd purchased a bottle of a soft drink as recompense for my use of the facilities) and a walk across the park totally convinced me this village was definitely only affluent around the edges. I'm still not more than about 80% convinced, but I posted the application form through the appropriate door anyway!!

And, as if to reward me for my virtue, all three buses home connected beautifully, and I had no more than five minutes to wait anywhere.

So, I'm declaring a work free weekend. I've filled in lots of forms this week, and done lots of useful things.

]]>Aubergines, Banks and Circleshttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/19/aubergines-banks-and-circles-6761708/2009-08-19T20:37:40+02:00 <p>There's a nice alphabetical title for you. I do like a good bit of alphabetical arrangement. Books, CDs, words...</p> <p>It's been a lovely day, catching up with friends, being given the tiniest but most colourful aubergines I have ever seen, reading the riot act in the bank, (oh boy, did I read the riot act!) exploring bus routes, and learning about possible travel options for the immediate future. </p> <p>For it is coming to pass that I am moving on from this temporary abode, sooner than was looking possible this time last week, to another temporary abode, (but for months rather than weeks) not too far from where I was living when I first began this blog! </p> <p>I have been dithering very badly over the last few weeks/months, and completely unable to make up my mind about the simplest things. But, since making this one decision, I seem to have got much more motivated to sort other things out, and am enthusiastic about job and accommodation hunting again. Especially as I can see several glimmers of hope on the horizon!</p> <p>So, I'm forgetting about all the ideal and sensible solutions, about moving to the area where I currently have a part time job, and developing a life there...which I now realise I don't want to do. Nor do I want to make my life where I am currently living. It's been a great temporary solution, but was never meant to be anything other than temporary. </p> <p>Now, to think of mini-aubergine recipes! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/19/aubergines-banks-and-circles-6761708/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>There's a nice alphabetical title for you. I do like a good bit of alphabetical arrangement. Books, CDs, words...

It's been a lovely day, catching up with friends, being given the tiniest but most colourful aubergines I have ever seen, reading the riot act in the bank, (oh boy, did I read the riot act!) exploring bus routes, and learning about possible travel options for the immediate future.

For it is coming to pass that I am moving on from this temporary abode, sooner than was looking possible this time last week, to another temporary abode, (but for months rather than weeks) not too far from where I was living when I first began this blog!

I have been dithering very badly over the last few weeks/months, and completely unable to make up my mind about the simplest things. But, since making this one decision, I seem to have got much more motivated to sort other things out, and am enthusiastic about job and accommodation hunting again. Especially as I can see several glimmers of hope on the horizon!

So, I'm forgetting about all the ideal and sensible solutions, about moving to the area where I currently have a part time job, and developing a life there...which I now realise I don't want to do. Nor do I want to make my life where I am currently living. It's been a great temporary solution, but was never meant to be anything other than temporary.

Now, to think of mini-aubergine recipes!

]]>Failed... againhttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/18/failed-again-6750361/2009-08-18T10:28:45+02:00 <p>Dear me. This is not good.</p> <p>I failed the other week to make a bunch of five year olds understand I'm not really that good with gaggles of children that age. One or two at a time, yes. Lots, definitely not.</p> <p>This morning I have failed to make a dog understand I am not it's current best friend, even if I am the only person in this morning. She seems to think curled up next to me whilst I muse on the meaning of life, do I need another cup of coffee, and more job application forms, is the best possible place to be. </p> <p>Have I left my "Leave Me in Peace" vibes in a box somewhere, I wonder? </p> <p>Considering I fell asleep before 9.00 p.m. last night, and am not long up and dressed, I really would like to go back to sleep again! I think the enormity of life has just caught up with me, and rest seems the sensible thing to do this week and next, when nothing else is going on! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/18/failed-again-6750361/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Dear me. This is not good.

I failed the other week to make a bunch of five year olds understand I'm not really that good with gaggles of children that age. One or two at a time, yes. Lots, definitely not.

This morning I have failed to make a dog understand I am not it's current best friend, even if I am the only person in this morning. She seems to think curled up next to me whilst I muse on the meaning of life, do I need another cup of coffee, and more job application forms, is the best possible place to be.

Have I left my "Leave Me in Peace" vibes in a box somewhere, I wonder?

Considering I fell asleep before 9.00 p.m. last night, and am not long up and dressed, I really would like to go back to sleep again! I think the enormity of life has just caught up with me, and rest seems the sensible thing to do this week and next, when nothing else is going on!

]]>Ah... OK... Yes... Well...http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/14/ah-ok-yes-well-6721590/2009-08-14T11:03:27+02:00 <p>Oh... </p> <p>I appear to be having an incoherent moment/hour/day/week or several, bear with me, and words that make sense might appear.</p> <p>I also appear to have lost all ability to make any decisions... but that might be returning, slowly.</p> <p>I also appear to have problems with connecting mouth to brain, and the former is consistently working before the latter has had time to engage.</p> <p>Today, however, <em>should</em> be the day when I start being a bit more proactive about several things, and working towards what I really want and need. It's been the date in my mind for ages and ages for that very activity. But, I'm sure it can wait now until after the weekend. After all, the sun is shining, the last of the mammoth laundry pile is being dealt with, a nice long walk beckons, but still no interest in chocolate. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/14/ah-ok-yes-well-6721590/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Oh...

I appear to be having an incoherent moment/hour/day/week or several, bear with me, and words that make sense might appear.

I also appear to have lost all ability to make any decisions... but that might be returning, slowly.

I also appear to have problems with connecting mouth to brain, and the former is consistently working before the latter has had time to engage.

Today, however, should be the day when I start being a bit more proactive about several things, and working towards what I really want and need. It's been the date in my mind for ages and ages for that very activity. But, I'm sure it can wait now until after the weekend. After all, the sun is shining, the last of the mammoth laundry pile is being dealt with, a nice long walk beckons, but still no interest in chocolate.

]]>Since I didn't quite get organised...http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/10/since-i-didn-t-quite-get-organised-6694458/2009-08-10T20:18:46+02:00 <p>in that the laundry situation was, um, somewhat more dire than I had realised, and had to be attended to before I could pack again, <em>and</em> I had completely misread the bus timetables, and what should have been a two hour journey after returning the car turned into three and a half hours, <em>and</em> I desperately needed sleep this afternoon and couldn't get it, owing to the new shower being installed, I'm going away early tomorrow morning instead! Which will be much more sensible, and what I should have said I would do in the first place. </p> <p>Time to attend to my seriously neglected blog!! Off I go, and, in no particular order...</p> <p>I have somehow managed to gain myself a reputation. Again. <img src="/img/smilies/icon_rolleyes.gif" alt=":roll:" class="middle" border="0"> This time, for being good with the five year olds.... Five year olds!!! No, this cannot be. I cannot account for why these children, none of whom had met me this time last week, decided I was the adult of choice when it came to putting themselves into working groups. I'm not sure if it was the fact I was the only one who could consistently remember all the words and all the actions to the songs, or that I didn't mind my feet being eaten in the Shark Game, or that I mentioned that very rude word, (knickers), when deciding if any of us were wearing white or not. </p> <p>Despite the serious clear out I had before moving, I still seem to have a large amount of boxes and cases that are sitting patiently in the garage, awaiting a more permanent home.</p> <p>It rained last Thursday. Serious rain. If I'd have been organised, I'd've gone a-hunting for Subs until the rain had stopped, since I was driving past her neck of the woods... but I failed there as well. </p> <p>I did not paddle in the sea. </p> <p>I did have a very, very scrumptious elderflower and lemon cake.</p> <p>Coventry Cathedral is the most gorgeous building to play a clarinet in. I am told I was quite a tourist attraction, stood in the pulpit, playing away. (I was not best pleased that there were tourists meandering around during a service, so I ignored the tourists. I had a job to do!) I still don't quite believe I grew up less than fifteen miles away from Coventry, yet have visited the Cathedrals for the first time last week. It was all well worth the three hundred mile round trip!</p> <p>I am going to enjoy saying "I told you I did not believe in seven working days" to the nice people in the bank when I go to enquire as to the whereabouts of my debit card that was ordered fifteen working days ago, at least.</p> <p>I still seem to have no interest in chocolate.... <img src="/img/smilies/graybigeek.gif" alt="88|" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/10/since-i-didn-t-quite-get-organised-6694458/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>in that the laundry situation was, um, somewhat more dire than I had realised, and had to be attended to before I could pack again, and I had completely misread the bus timetables, and what should have been a two hour journey after returning the car turned into three and a half hours, and I desperately needed sleep this afternoon and couldn't get it, owing to the new shower being installed, I'm going away early tomorrow morning instead! Which will be much more sensible, and what I should have said I would do in the first place.

Time to attend to my seriously neglected blog!! Off I go, and, in no particular order...

I have somehow managed to gain myself a reputation. Again. :roll: This time, for being good with the five year olds.... Five year olds!!! No, this cannot be. I cannot account for why these children, none of whom had met me this time last week, decided I was the adult of choice when it came to putting themselves into working groups. I'm not sure if it was the fact I was the only one who could consistently remember all the words and all the actions to the songs, or that I didn't mind my feet being eaten in the Shark Game, or that I mentioned that very rude word, (knickers), when deciding if any of us were wearing white or not.

Despite the serious clear out I had before moving, I still seem to have a large amount of boxes and cases that are sitting patiently in the garage, awaiting a more permanent home.

It rained last Thursday. Serious rain. If I'd have been organised, I'd've gone a-hunting for Subs until the rain had stopped, since I was driving past her neck of the woods... but I failed there as well.

I did not paddle in the sea.

I did have a very, very scrumptious elderflower and lemon cake.

Coventry Cathedral is the most gorgeous building to play a clarinet in. I am told I was quite a tourist attraction, stood in the pulpit, playing away. (I was not best pleased that there were tourists meandering around during a service, so I ignored the tourists. I had a job to do!) I still don't quite believe I grew up less than fifteen miles away from Coventry, yet have visited the Cathedrals for the first time last week. It was all well worth the three hundred mile round trip!

I am going to enjoy saying "I told you I did not believe in seven working days" to the nice people in the bank when I go to enquire as to the whereabouts of my debit card that was ordered fifteen working days ago, at least.

I still seem to have no interest in chocolate.... 88|

]]>Now, how did that happen?!http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/09/now-how-did-that-happen-6687997/2009-08-09T22:59:01+02:00 <p>But, you're going to have to wait to find out, because I'm off early again in the morning for another few days!! </p> <p>Back soon.... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/08/09/now-how-did-that-happen-6687997/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>But, you're going to have to wait to find out, because I'm off early again in the morning for another few days!!

Back soon....

]]>Only five days later than plannedhttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/26/only-five-days-later-than-planned-6588500/2009-07-26T00:06:01+02:00 <p>but the accounts are finally done... now I can turn my mind to the next most pressing matter.</p> <p>Will all I possess fit in the boxes?</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/26/only-five-days-later-than-planned-6588500/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>but the accounts are finally done... now I can turn my mind to the next most pressing matter.

Will all I possess fit in the boxes?

]]>Remind me next time.http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/23/remind-me-next-time-6576045/2009-07-23T23:00:28+02:00 <p>Never breezily say an admin job involving spreadsheets will be finished in two or three hours.... nine hours further into the task, a lot of temper and angst, and deep mutterings, and I <em>think</em> I've another six hours or so to go. </p> <p>Which is a bit perturbing, but do-able.</p> <p>Still, a cinema break and meal out this evening was a good idea. It took my mind off the fact it was my own idiocy that caused the trauma in the first place. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/23/remind-me-next-time-6576045/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Never breezily say an admin job involving spreadsheets will be finished in two or three hours.... nine hours further into the task, a lot of temper and angst, and deep mutterings, and I think I've another six hours or so to go.

Which is a bit perturbing, but do-able.

Still, a cinema break and meal out this evening was a good idea. It took my mind off the fact it was my own idiocy that caused the trauma in the first place.

]]>Clear desk, but very messy floor.http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/22/clear-desk-but-very-messy-floor-6569081/2009-07-22T21:19:04+02:00 <p>Another two or three hours, and my most hated task of the year will be done! But, I need a clear head, and no distractions, so tomorrow morning will be the allotted time. Data's all entered, it reconciled, I just need to make it all balance!! And check all the refunds are correct. That's the bit I really hate.<br> Eek.</p> <p>But, it does mean my desk is almost clear, and with no impending paperwork.</p> <p>The floor... oh dear, oh dear. There's the packing for the first summer activity, the second activity which lands half way through the first, and the lists for next week's packing, the stuff that's staying put, and the stuff that I refuse to be parted from at any point. And the list of things to be printed before my printer and computer are parted for a fortnight or so!</p> <p>I had vague hopes for most of the day that I might have a more fixed abode sooner rather than later, but that's not going to work, my guts tell me.</p> <p>But, I think I'm beginning to think one or two things through a bit more clearly. Especially now I'm keeping clear of all those who think it's their duty to be telling me how I should sort my life out. I seem to attract this kind of unsolicited advice more than most people. Until about a week ago, I've mostly been listening with a quarter of an ear, nodding in the correct places, (I hope!!) and doing plenty of "Hmmms" But, somewhere about ten days ago, I lost all patience with it. </p> <p>Luckily, I have plenty to occupy me!!</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/22/clear-desk-but-very-messy-floor-6569081/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>Another two or three hours, and my most hated task of the year will be done! But, I need a clear head, and no distractions, so tomorrow morning will be the allotted time. Data's all entered, it reconciled, I just need to make it all balance!! And check all the refunds are correct. That's the bit I really hate.
Eek.

But, it does mean my desk is almost clear, and with no impending paperwork.

The floor... oh dear, oh dear. There's the packing for the first summer activity, the second activity which lands half way through the first, and the lists for next week's packing, the stuff that's staying put, and the stuff that I refuse to be parted from at any point. And the list of things to be printed before my printer and computer are parted for a fortnight or so!

I had vague hopes for most of the day that I might have a more fixed abode sooner rather than later, but that's not going to work, my guts tell me.

But, I think I'm beginning to think one or two things through a bit more clearly. Especially now I'm keeping clear of all those who think it's their duty to be telling me how I should sort my life out. I seem to attract this kind of unsolicited advice more than most people. Until about a week ago, I've mostly been listening with a quarter of an ear, nodding in the correct places, (I hope!!) and doing plenty of "Hmmms" But, somewhere about ten days ago, I lost all patience with it.

Luckily, I have plenty to occupy me!!

]]>Dilemmashttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/20/dilemmas-6555344/2009-07-20T20:04:40+02:00 <p>The first dilemma is that I was to be at work tomorrow, but now am not going to be.</p> <p>I don't want to be here. I agreed to going in to work so as to avoid the usual Tuesday activity here.</p> <p>So, do I go into work regardless, taking with me the work I'd do here? My motivation for finishing this piece of work is rock bottom, and often the solution is to take the work somewhere where I'm not going to be distracted.</p> <p>Do I brave the usual Tuesday activity, with the <em>very</em> high potential for me losing my temper at some point in the process? I have managed to hold onto my temper pretty well over the last couple of months or so, but I am aware it's bubbling away under the surface.</p> <p>Or, do I run away for the day? </p> <p>Bother. Bother. Bother.</p> <p>My second dilemma is simpler. Do I tackle Under the Bed or The Cupboard I Rarely Go In first?</p> <p>My third dilemma is also simpler... and I think I've already solved it! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/20/dilemmas-6555344/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>The first dilemma is that I was to be at work tomorrow, but now am not going to be.

I don't want to be here. I agreed to going in to work so as to avoid the usual Tuesday activity here.

So, do I go into work regardless, taking with me the work I'd do here? My motivation for finishing this piece of work is rock bottom, and often the solution is to take the work somewhere where I'm not going to be distracted.

Do I brave the usual Tuesday activity, with the very high potential for me losing my temper at some point in the process? I have managed to hold onto my temper pretty well over the last couple of months or so, but I am aware it's bubbling away under the surface.

Or, do I run away for the day?

Bother. Bother. Bother.

My second dilemma is simpler. Do I tackle Under the Bed or The Cupboard I Rarely Go In first?

My third dilemma is also simpler... and I think I've already solved it!

]]>Now it definitely is Sundayhttp://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/19/now-it-definitely-is-sunday-6545574/2009-07-19T13:52:35+02:00 <p>I didn't over-sleep, I did all I had to, delivered all letters, didn't hang around for coffee, and got out as fast as I could. </p> <p>Maybe, sometime later, when things have settled I'll think about all this more logically, and rationally, but for now, my thought on going out of the door "That's me out of there!" is the best I can do. And, I so, so wish I could say something more positive other than there are people I will miss... But I can't, so I won't for now. </p> <p>The number of churches I've attended regularly over the last twenty or more years must be well into double figures by now. Then there were the two of the different denomination I went to as as child. There's the one I went to experimentally as a student... but my Quaker phase didn't last long, music is too important a part of how I worship . Some I've gone to because I've had to, others have been a choice, some I've hated to leave, others have been a relief to leave, and there are others I still consider "my" church. Two I can walk back into and it's as if I'd never been away. </p> <p>At the moment, it's most tempting to avoid church altogether for the next while, until I settle somewhere more permanently. But, I know from experience, I can usually manage a week, or three at the most, before I'm back again. However, I'm certainly planning to taking residence in a quiet back pew for a good while even when I do start going somewhere else regularly again. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://lostplot.blog.co.uk/2009/07/19/now-it-definitely-is-sunday-6545574/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>I didn't over-sleep, I did all I had to, delivered all letters, didn't hang around for coffee, and got out as fast as I could.

Maybe, sometime later, when things have settled I'll think about all this more logically, and rationally, but for now, my thought on going out of the door "That's me out of there!" is the best I can do. And, I so, so wish I could say something more positive other than there are people I will miss... But I can't, so I won't for now.

The number of churches I've attended regularly over the last twenty or more years must be well into double figures by now. Then there were the two of the different denomination I went to as as child. There's the one I went to experimentally as a student... but my Quaker phase didn't last long, music is too important a part of how I worship . Some I've gone to because I've had to, others have been a choice, some I've hated to leave, others have been a relief to leave, and there are others I still consider "my" church. Two I can walk back into and it's as if I'd never been away.

At the moment, it's most tempting to avoid church altogether for the next while, until I settle somewhere more permanently. But, I know from experience, I can usually manage a week, or three at the most, before I'm back again. However, I'm certainly planning to taking residence in a quiet back pew for a good while even when I do start going somewhere else regularly again.

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